Head Held High

I worked out yesterday for the first time in about 6 months. You know how you set goals for yourself, some that you'd like to accomplish in a day, some in a week, some in 5 years?  I set myself a goal about 3 years ago, and still have not even come near to accomplishing it. Here's the background: I used to be a dancer. No, not that kind of dancer... I danced ballet, tap, jazz, and a bunch of other sorts of styles that are affiliated with the term: dance. I danced for at least 12 years which means that I was in pretty good shape. A few years ago I decided to stop dancing to help me concentrate on working and college, because that's what I was told I needed to focus on. Apparently dancing would take me nowhere, thanks for the encouragement. With the passing time I have become what I would call, "out of shape". 

Someone is singing in the hallway again. o.O 

Ugh. I'm so easily distracted. According to my Wii Fit, which I trust with all my heart, *cough*sarcasm*cough* I am "normal". However, I vowed 3 years ago when I stopped dancing that I would stay in shape and go back to dancing as soon as I could afford the time. 

I failed.

Three years have passed and I have not worked out to stay in the shape that I was when I dance, nor have I attempted to go back to dancing, even though it's all my heart wants to do. Every time an old friend asks me, "Hey Stacey! How have you been? Still dancing?" I answer with a broken heart, "No, I don't have time anymore." It's saddening. 

I really didn't mean for this to sound like a sob story. This is a story about goals, goals that need to be kept. So here, today, I will set goals that I wish to accomplish in the the next year.

List of Goals:

1. FINALLY get back into shape.
2. Take a dance class, whether it's at my old studio or a new one.
3. Graduate with a Bachelor's Degree!
4. Stay close to friends and family.
5. Strengthen my relationship with Jesus. <3
6. Remember that I am not the most important thing in my life.

I'd say that's enough for now. Too many goals can be unrealistic, so I'd just like to stay with these for now. Give me a year and let's see what I can do. 

<3

Oh look! The wall.

See that flower on the wall? Yah, no one ever does. 

It's hard to be friends when only one person is trying.

Ignore me.

I'm over it.

Oh, Hello Summer.

I got a little toasted yesterday while hanging out by the pool. I guess that I forgot that I haven't really seen the sun in a couple years. I used to NEVER burn.. so I'm used to not wearing sunscreen except on my face. Oh, how I was wrong this time. I think I'm pretty much half white girl/half lobster now. It's only 11am and I've gotten about 5 comments on how "burned" I am.

Yes. Thank you. I know.

I should have worn a big t-shirt to work today so no one would notice, but it's so stinkin hot outside that if I did wear a t-shirt I would die of heat stroke or something! Ah.. welcome to Southern California summer.. you've been missed. Speaking of summer, I need some summer plans! :D The first plan was England, the second was New York, and now it's looking like Hawaii. (And you all wondered why I had two jobs and worked 7 days a week... pfft. It's so I can have a fun summer!) Although, I'll still be working over the summer, but at least this job is a fun job. 

So the summer plans are up in the air with everything else at the moment. :| bah. 

OH! Side-note: My trackpad clicker on my laptop is making funny noises. This is so not cool.

The End.

<3

Procrastination

This is what I call "Procrastination at its finest." It is currently 12:17pm and I have a midterm at 6:00 that I have not studied for. -_- I find the Spring quarter such a hard time to get motivated. By the time the weather warms up the only place that I want to be is outside... not sitting in a classroom. You would think that this being my second to last quarter in college that I would be more motivated.. but I'm not. 

So many things are happening, or could be happening soon, and I find it hard to keep my mind in once place for an extended amount of time. My future is hanging in the next couple of weeks. One phone call will determine: Am I moving? Am I staying? Am I losing my boyfriend for 4 months? Am I looking for a job here? Am I going to England this summer? Am I moving in with my parents again? If I leave, how often will I really get to see my family? Will my niece remember me? Will I make friends easily if I do move?

It all rides on one phone call.

It's really hard to stay focused on school when my whole life is may be about to turn up-side-down.

But hey.. My weekend trip up to San Francisco was awesome! :D